May-May@-~-

Stress!

After so many days of 6 or more than 6 hrs of pract, i'm tired, I'm really really tired..... I don't know if I can sustain till Exam day itself.
Read Minyu's blog, about the standard of year 3... precisely.... tat's why RP keeping saying our Year 2 is lousy...worst than year 1 and not as good as year 3....
I'm very stress... I reallly can't wait to pass this exam... i don't ask for much a pass i'm happy... to promote to next year and complete and get out of this shit place.....

Enuff is enuff.... a so called high standard place...with er... oki la quite few high standard teachers but countable amount of lecturers around... should I said wat a shame?? or good?? I don't know

I have to admit, mentally I really can't take the stress of practical exam....maybe tat's why I'm finding excuses for myself?? or trying to hide....I always have a self pity tots when come to practical exam.... great la got reprimanded by piano teacher tat day... seat that and cry... I deserve it... I screwed my lesson that day... spoil my own day... didn't learn much have alot of lectures from her....me and my self pity.... and low self confidence.....serve me right...

I have to reject so many potential students for wat?? for school work? have to cancel my class with my students for wat? for my exam... and there goes my income.... eat wat?? Eat air lor!

I really hate.. it... sometimes really blame myself for my stupidity for not just complete the Dip AB and why bother to step into this so called reputable school........BA? last thing in my mind I think.....but I really admire those who did it....

There goes my degrees opport... and 3rd diploma in my file.... sigh... so many diplomas for wat??? can't even exchange for a degree... should have did dietetics in Aust? or do a degree in biz instead since I didn't did badly after all for this two dip.........or continue to work........might even had a pay raise... two and half times more than wat I'm getting now.... those were the days where I just spend and travel... sigh......don't even know wat I want in life..

I guess i'm just worn out... blabbering rubbish...

Anyway, Thank MInyu for listening for my exam pieces today... Thanks alot! Been a great help
And made me realise hard work do pay off...
Now more work for beethoven and poulenc...esp poulenc.

More practices hoursto go...........

posted by *May*@-`- @ 11:02:00 PM